Dear Diary,
Today I got up really late, I was exhausted! And… I actually ate breakfast!!
Like a lot too! I ate 2 waffles (with butter on them!) and a whole bag of dried banana pieces! Then for lunch I ate half a tub of pasta, and I had a smoothie! I still don’t think I’m eating normal amounts, as I completely skipped dinner but I do think I am making a bit of slow process, I mean I ate breakfast today!
I have good days and bad days doesn’t everybody? I still want to weigh a lot less but I guess I have admitted to myself now that starvation isn’t good for me, no matter how many pounds it makes me lose.
And I recommend that no one avoids food like I sometimes find myself doing. I wish I wasn’t like this. I wish I could sit down and not care about what I’m eating, I wish I didn’t have to wake up and go through in my mind all the calories I will be consuming today. But it’s got me, and somehow I cant quite escape yet.
I have lost a stone since before the summer, and about half a stone since school broke up before Christmas.
I guess I kind of hope people will notice and be like ‘wow! You’ve lost so much weight!’ But on the other hand I don’t want people to suspect I might have a problem.
From Casey x
so today was the big one...
the day I'd been dreading...
today was the big shopping day with my mum!!!
I had to get up pretty early which sucked because I like to sleep in ;) and I enjoyed the first few shops but after a couple of hours the novelty wore off and it began to get very boring.
so our first stop was Tescos, and my Mum bought a DVD and just a few clothes and stuff. Then we went to this outlet centre where all these shops put all their sale stuff - it's pretty awesome there because everything's really cheap, but most of it's really nice, it's just been marked down! So boy did I get a lot of clothes at that shopping centre!!! Well I had to get loads of new trousers because all my old ones are at least a size too big for me now :) and I think I ended up with 3 new pairs of trousers and 2 new skirts! That was really cool!
After the shopping centre we went to Asda and ate lunch real quick in the car before going in and spending ages there looking through heaps of school trousers only to find that there were none in my size!!! It was actually pretty annoying because the school trousers I have now are way too big on me, so I need some more.
THEN!!! We finally went home, oh and I also got a new coat! And some wrist bands, and pot noodles and dried banana pieces, and a bunch of other stuff!!!
All in all I think I enjoyed this day out a little bit. My mum and dad haven't been as stressed recently - I think it's because it's the holidays so everyone's chilling out etc. But I definately wouldn't want to go shopping with mum every day, I wouldn't even like to do it every month but it wasn't too bad. Nothing too major happened really and I guess I'm glad. Still, it would be more interesting if I'd run away from home today or something like that lol!
